Pressure cooker ready to blow up?

Got this message from my daily astrology readings.

Emotionally, you may feel yourself coming to a dramatic climax in regard to an issue that you take very personally, daphnie. There is a strong force working to stir up your feelings, but this doesn't mean that you have to start spinning out of control. At the same time all of this emotion is building up within you, you will find that there is a solid, grounding force that is helping you keep your feet on the ground. This lifeline is always there for you when you need it, so trust in it.

It is after midnight while I'm writing this entry.... and the issue that I take very personally happened "yesterday" and many other days before this. I have even about it once in Apr. And you might ask "why are you writing it again?" Well, at this perspective from the astrologer, I am coming to a dramatic climax.

Since April, I've been reminding myself not to be petty about the issue and just be big hearted and generous. Well, I fell that I've done enough self-encouragement and it is now time to do some ranting. It is my blog, therefore I can rant whenever and whatever I want to. And in order not to "spin out of control", I'm trying to find my "lifeline".

I'm back to the issue of me always being the proactive and everyone else, well.... are proactive for themselves. I happened to speak to a friend recently about this issue, and I am grateful for her honesty. I asked the same question "Why am I the one always thinking of activities and inviting/asking others if they are interested to join me, and on the contrary, I would not be invited to their outings or parties?" Her answer to me was "Some people are just plain lazy. Would only move when asked to... but will not take initiative"

I first had the impression that "the others" were just not thinking or being proactive about going out or looking for activities to do during the weekend. Oh I am so, so wrong. They do have activities planned, but they just won't tell you about it and not ask you along either. Is it that difficult to say to someone "Hey, I found this interesting place (to eat, to shop, to hang out or whatever), wanna come and check it out? or I'm going for these movies, wanna join us?" When I become too curious, I would sometimes outwardly ask them. Some would just try to ignore the question, others might just give a textbook answer, "got something to do lor".

So, back to the rhetorical question, "What the hell is wrong???!!!" Is it me or is it you? I'm just getting very, very tired.... of always doing the asking and then waiting for a reciprocate. Know what is the meaning of that? From the dictionary, it means:

1. To move back and forth alternately.
2. To give and take something mutually.
3. To make a return for something given or done

So, is that too much to ask? Aren't friendships build on that? Are my expectations of friendship too high for others to follow/reach?

I'm going to leave it just as it is. I know that no matter how much I question... there will never be a honest answer or a satisfying one.